Monday, September 18, 2017

If today was your last day...

An acquaintance collapsed at a work meeting Thursday, had emergency surgery for a ruptured brain aneurysm and was admitted to the ICU, never regaining consciousness. The family continued life support to preserve organs for donation.

It was like Mom all over again.
My mother collapsed at work, never regaining consciousness. She died five days later. She never got to be retired, she never got to collect her pension. She didn’t finish paying off her mortgage, she didn’t get Social Security. She worked her whole life, raising me and my siblings, working at Dollar Savings Bank, which became Dollar- Dry Dock and finally Emigrant.

Her customers came to her wake, sobbing in disbelief.  Her coworkers, their children, most of mom’s siblings, her mother… My siblings and father had to “make arrangements”. We had to go through her stuff, redistribute her life.
The items she was saving for a special occasion.

The outfits that were “too nice” for work.
The things she loved and cherished.

I have always been sad about the things my mother missed. Watching my brother get married, seeing her grandchildren grow up and get settled in life. I wonder what she would have thought about the events of our world and how much has changed since she has been gone… and how much is very much the same.
I wonder how she would have felt about selling our family home.

What she would have thought of Bitcoin, Facebook, IPhones and Instagram…
Her thought on the Pope, the President, and Great Britain leaving the EU…

I am really missing my mom today.

Friday, September 15, 2017

Step One Undone

I have has a rough financial summer due to some medical complications that have not only depleted my emergency fun but promise to keep the bills rolling in for months to come.

I am starting again. Saving the $1000 dollars. Again. And then paying the medical bills and furnace by snowballing. Again.

And paying for a new water heater, cause mine is starting to leak and is 14 years old. That is how it is with home ownership- always something.

So I keep on keeping on. It is hard sometimes, but I am still in a better place that I was this time last year.